I can't sleep too much on my mind so im feeling horrible right know. i have been thinking about my social life

and my anxiety around people. on saturday i was at the mall with my bro and sis and i didnt want to go at first because i hate places where there are too many people. so we go into one of those stores with really loud music and people everywhere and i get this fluttery feeling in my chest and i notice im gonna have an anxiety attack if i dont get out of there. i felt like this the whole time, i felt like everyone was watching me and talking about me and criticising me. so i went ahead of my siling and decided to wait at the entrance of the mall and i was standing there looking at people with my normal facial expression and this person walking past me said to me "Damn why you look so mean" so i thought to my self what? this is how i normally look. and it clicked that this was the reason everybody always told me to smile. i went home and studied my face in the mirror and i always have this scowl on my face, and i didnt notice until yesterday. i get all gittery when i have to..Not Done